¡Ah mi linda!

My soft skin to sweet touch, my daily medicine of love in the morning and in the evening,

and throughout the day which your fills with happiness that drives away all sadness.

How are you my darling? 

I so wait for your healing touch of ecstasy, taste beyond compare, that fills a man with delight beyond description.


Matrix Bars Bend I Vow

Shortly before sundown
The landscape sparkles behind confining bars
Beckoning to the night, Saturday’s invitation
To the dance, To the love of the lovers,
To my dad’s birthday, imminent with celebration.
But, I, confined in before rusty steel bars,
Am going nowhere, one side gripped by stubborn illness,
The other by toxic work,
There is no fun permitted me.


has cut through the suffering, the misery,
such a fate would sentence anyone to.
But not me! Yes the people and fun are phantoms.
But the peace has not and will not be robbed me.
Blow hell you steely smoke of charred pain!
You’ll never succumb me, might’s well surrender now.
I am the sunshine, the people, the party,
Turned around on you, my matrix bars bend I avow.20170805_194512

Why Meditate? What is the Difference between what Meditation and what Chanting Nam Myoho Renge Kyo Each Accomplishes?

Chanting is my only meditation. Life is meditation if you can psyche yourself into it. You gotta not let the things of life shake you. It’s much easier to isolate yourself in a room and meditate. There the only devils are your thoughts. But to live life itself as a meditation–that is infinitely harder. To achieve that which is called in Buddhism samyak samadhi, or the Buddha’s state of non-regression, only chanting Nam myoho renge kyo with powerful determination will work. Then you can sail through life like a calm breeze at all times. It just takes a lot of daily practice.

There are no perfect Buddhas

​We are all imperfect. To try to pretend to be a perfect, flawless Buddha who is always smiling and compassionate so that others will take up this religion is both unrealistic and incorrect practice as well as a cop-out. Those who see us every day see real us. They see right through the pretense. However, what separates a genuine Buddhist practitioner from others is that a genuine Buddhist practitioner understands that he or she is far from a perfect Buddha yet makes efforts every day to live with greater self-awareness, greater compassion and a genuine self that can communicate in a real and natural way the greatness of Buddhist practice and the infinite reasons taking it up will greatly improve one’s life by seeing the real connections between the reality they experience, the causes they are making and the ways they are interpreting them and thinking about them. Rather than try to be a superior being, I am trying to be a better person than I was or even habitually am being up to this moment and I invite you to join me and see how much together we can accomplish so much more as our individual selves im our individual lives and thereby contribute to improving the world we live in that, if people stay as they are, will result in either nuclear annihilation or climate change annihilation, whichever ticking time bomb goes off first, more likely in our own lifetime than that of the yet unborn.
Some people have many harsh and unrelenting standards which they impose on themselves and others, or worse, only on others, and most of us have one or more of these people in our lives. Such arise from ignorance of our true wonderful nature which can never be dispossesed and the resulting fear of loss of self or possessions, these 3 being the 3 poisons of ignorance, anger and greed, or the fear of death. Because these fears and poisons are innate in all our lives, we incorporate the voices of such people in our heads and hold ourselves and others to harsh standards. If we try to practice or come into contact with people who practice Buddhism (Nichiren, SGI Buddhism, that is), unless we see the true nature of our thinking, we will have inrealstic expectations and often sink, in the face of such pressure, to giving up and finding whatever temporary fix or comfort we can to further mask the pain, an inevitably fruitless and pointless endeavor. So the first step is to recognize and be kinder to ourselves and others while bravely walking the path of Buddhist practice and becoming not a perfect Buddha (which doesn’t exist) but a better Buddha with each day and allow people to see natural growth and change as we continually share these great principles that truly work for anyone courageous enough to really try.

“Nichiren Daishonin states in ‘Letter to Akimoto”, ‘All the Buddhas of the three existences and the ten directions have attained Buddhahood through the seed of the Mystic Law. The Daishonin clarifies that the same principle, not any other special means, equally enables all people to attain enlightenment.

“Now all of us have had this same seed of the Mystic Law planted in our lives. How wonderful! When we exert the powers of faith and practice to tap the powers of the Buddha and the Law inherent in the Gohonzon, we can definitely show proof of having attained Buddhahood in this lifetime. This is a promise made by the original Buddha and absolutely never fails to materialize.

“You must never be deceived by someone who does not embrace the Mystic Law, no matter how extraordinary that person may appear. Both the Great Teacher Dengyo and Nichiren Daishonin state that in the Latter day of the Law, there will be no ‘saints’ or ‘sages’…”

“All of us are ordinary human beings. When ordinary people embrace the Gohonzon completely, we can enjoy our lives from moment to moment just as we are, savoring an inexhaustible taste of Buddhahood. In the eyes of Buddhism, therefore, all of us…dedicated to the cause of kosen-rufu [the wide spread of the Law, i.e. the principles of absolute respect for the dignity and unlimited capability of each person, which will of course lead to peace and save us all–these are my words] are indescribably precious”

These last 3 paragraphs were from “My Dear Friends in America”, p. 72. This is from a speech given by SGI President Daisaku Ikeda. It happens to the very first speech of his I attended (via videoconference) and the very first time I saw him live and heard the sound of his voice. I could hear and sense the outrage in his voice toward those who give sincere people who are trying their best a hard time for “not measuring up” as he clarified what Buddhism really is all about and what religion should always be about, to help us grow to be better people in a human way while strictly embracing and supporting others while never saying or doing things to cut them down and make them feel bad. I can’t iterate this enough.

i am very young

As long as I’m alive, I will stay young. Whether it’s nurturing the next generation, fighting for equal justice for all or awakening people to the beauty of their lives, I will be totally vibrant and alive. What I was too scared, too sick and too overwhelmed to do for too long, I will be doing 3-fold for a very long time ahead. I dare all you 20-year, 30-year olds, to try to keep up with me.

Marc Ginsburg

My Life (Letter to my parents)

Dear Mom, Dad and M___,

I have required of myself to speak to one person a day about the great beneficial power of Nam myoho renge kyo so that I don’t forget it myself. So what better people to dedicate today’s report than the ones I have started out closest to in life, the ones who are tied to me irrevocably by an invisible thread that cannot be broken, no matter how hard one would try.

You are probably all cringing now, thinking, “Why is he bothering me with this again? His organization must be having another massive recruitment campaign.” If I’ve pegged you wrong, then congratulations! You are an independent minded person who eludes predictability.

But all that doesn’t really matter because I am not writing this email to respond to anything you might be thinking. I am writing this email because I have hidden my tortured life from you most of these years (as best I could, at least), and now feel you deserve honest communication from me. But don’t worry, this isn’t going to be about you. It is going to be about me. (although, as you all well know, fortunately, or unfortunately, the two overlap).

In the SGI newspaper, the World Tribune, I came across an article entitled, “The Poetic Heart of Human Possibility”, which described a talk given by Colgate University Professor of English and women’s studies, Sarah Wider at the Ikeda Center for Peace, Learning and Dialogue in Cambridge, Mass. She was discussing her newly published book, “The Art of True Relations”, which is a dialogue between her and SGI Pres. Daisaku Ikeda. The article relates, “Dr. Wider also explored the image of the ‘kitchen table,’ which forms the heart of Joy Harjo’s poem ‘Perhaps the World Ends Here.’ It opens, ‘The world begins at a kitchen table. No matter what, we must eat to live./The gifts of earth are brought and prepared, set on the table. So it has been since creation, and will go on.’

“‘Because this table encompasses all of human experience, it too is the site where war has been brought into existence,’ Dr. Wider said. ‘Even our kitchen tables are not exempt, though I invite you to make them so,'”

I don’t have a kitchen table that I sit around at my one-person home these days. This laptop that I am typing this letter at is the centerpiece of my food intake. I pretend to share my food with my 3 stuffed animals so I can feel some semblance of  of family after the 3 broken families my karma from the past brought me into in this life. But this is not about blame; it is about acknowledgement and communication of the reality of my life. I turned to Nam myoho renge kyo because I was very lonely and unable to connect with women to have either sexual or meaningful relations. Since chanting Nam myoho renge kyo, that prayer was fulfilled with 3 women who each had their own issues and problems. When it became clear that my wife was suffering from a mental illness, I was so swept up by the fact that I was experiencing a happiness my life had never known that such an issue seemed secondary. After all, I have been the king of mental disorder.

Fortunately, despite several warnings from SGI leaders and Helen’s neighbor before I got married, I received tremendous support from the man who was the central leader in the SGI in New York, David Kasahara, the man who performed our marriage ceremony that you all remember. He was confident that because we were chanting to the Gohonzon, we could overcome anything. And the fact that we didn’t, I am 100% certain in my blood, is not the deficiency of the Gohonzon but of the two of us. At some point, we allowed our negativity to get the upper hand. But because David witnessed in a guidance session back in 1993 how supportive Helen was, he could see the beautiful part of human beings and the love we shared as being more powerful than all the evils. As long as we exercised that love and that belief in ourselves, in our greater power. That greater power is what Nam myoho renge kyo means and what is summoned up from within the life of one who chants it. Our marriage lasted and even thrived until David started fell very ill, from which he eventually died at almost the same time Helen moved out. It was then that it became clear to me that this man never stopped chanting for our happiness together since that day in 1993. It was his prayer and his confidence in the Gohonzon’s power that was keeping us together, not our own.


What has been my biggest dilemma in terms of finding new love is whether I even want to get involved with anyone at this time. I don’t know the answer to this, whether I should continue as a loner, just look for sex, or really look for that amazing love, that one person who I can feel is a true partner, a true companion.

I believe from my prayer that the most important thing at this moment in time is to fix myself. Now I am facing the toughest challenge anyone can face, that most don’t even bother to consider a possibility, that of fixing my lifelong history of broken health, both mental and physical. It is going to require a great deal of vigilance to my enery levels, stamina, exercise, food intake as well as every thought that enters my head. Is this a habitual thought that will continue to lead me to a negative realm or is it positive, value creating thought that will send my life in a new, better direction? I don’t just want to survive. I could be a caterpillar and do that. Then, at least I’d have a life with wings. I should never have given into the fear that I cold never make it as a rock and roll musician. But it’s too late for that adolescent fantasy now. I have a different mission in life.

But the point is that I can change the karma which led me to abandon music, first in classical form, later in popular form, and end up with the miserable, day-to-day life I have now but…. I was going to say “but didn’t need to have”, but as Buddhism teaches, all life has meaning. I have lived among people with hardship so I can empathize with them, so I can show them what one person, afflicted and assaulted by financial and health obstacles big-time can still yet accomplish. But I have to change that course of thinking, of karma, that makes me give up on and abandon myself.

I know this is a lot and I have only three minutes before I have to go back to my prison sentence of a job that is unthinking and unfeeling where I follow orders. I have the uneasy feeling that after having said all this, I have left you as blind to the world of possibilities that are contained within a Nichiren Buddhist practice. Perhaps, living steeped in the dogma with which you were raised, the assumptions about life that your parents held, it may not be possible to see all the connections between things in life and the ineluctability of the law of cause and effect that is Nam myoho renge kyo. So I will try to give you the simple explanation. After college, I kind of dropped out of life and did drugs, as you know. Today, many of those friends I hung out with because I didn’t have all the uneasy feelings I would have around most people when I was around stoned people–today, many of them are dead. But I, despite a severe chronic illness, have managed to stay alive. Perhaps even that won’t explain it.

Alright, let me push my work a little and explain it with another story. For years, I held Dad’s father, A______ up as the one hero of the family because I thought he took responsibility for a bomb that went off and saved his family. But I recently learned, to my deep disappointment, that he had actually been working with a socialist group that hid the bomb in the synagogue but it went off accidentally. I also learned that he punched a cop once in the 1930s, totally shocking me.

I know perhaps to you those who pursue violent paths may be heroes. But if there’s any place to cringe, it is here. The meaning of my sharing the “kitchen table” is to say that the one thing Buddhism and Daisaku Ikeda has impressed me with (because I come from the same stock you do) is that a heart, a hearth full of love, warmth and peace is the most important thing in the world. And yes, the kitchen table, the home, is the place where peace and war potentially begin. I hope I can salvage what is left of the proverbial kitchen table we once ate around and inspire you to think along those lines. If we don’t reach out to each others’ hearts and remove the masks and walls of fear and mistrust, I think we can only expect we are contributing to a downward spiral in this world toward war and destruction. And that will make it worse for A__, for J__ and for A__’s new child. I hope we can make the causes in our hearts to make it a good future for them by being brave with ourselves and being honest with each other.